Something inside us

Point Reyes National Seashore, California

I apologize in advance for how scattered my writing is probably going to be. I am still unsure of how to approach this subject. Love is very tough to write about. True love is finding someone, giving yourself up, and allowing yourself to be open and vulnerable. If you are lucky you'll find someone and you will let love merge two souls into one. Love brings happiness and comfort. Love however is not only something that exists between two people. It's usually something that many struggle to find within themselves. It can become overwhelming or destructive. Its absence can open a void in one's heart.

Love is letting yourself enjoy every moment that life has to offer. For me it was becoming content with who I am and accepting myself in a society that is often closed-minded. It was finally taking my first breath in my new skin. Love was then trial and error. I constantly made my way back to square one. I was a new soul in the world of many who have already been considering themselves "damaged". I associated myself with those who shut down love, because of the fear of the unknown. Many people are afraid to love and be loved because they feel deep down in their unconscious mind that they are unworthy of both. The hardest part is proving to someone that you could be good for them. 

For now, Love has become much more than worrying. I have learned to take risks and put myself on the line when even my heart can't handle anymore. Although confusing thoughts make their way back into my life continuously, I have decided that I would let myself enjoy the moments that I get to let my heart roam. However maybe it's time I take a break from the chase and focus more on my future. I won't lie, I struggle with loving myself sometimes and I also from time to time think I'm not worthy of another's love. The underlying problem seems to be the lack of self-confidence. It's something I'm working on improving. 

This week I felt myself slipping away. I have devoted so much time into other things that I pushed off work that is really important to me. It is time I worked on building myself up again and started focusing on my own story. I am going to try and keep this blog more up-to-date. I have taken more photos and uploaded them to the Photography tab. Go check them out. I will be posting again soon.

Love,

Enrike